It really is bleak isn't it?! My first game was 'that boxing day' match in '99 against Arsenal. I was hooked ever since. The whole experience was magical, and as a young kid at the time I couldn't have asked for any more. I've seen my fair amount of great games and absolute shite in the time since, but there was always the sense of blind optimism going into every game, no matter how bad it had been the week(s) before.
I can honestly say that I no longer have that feeling going into any game anymore. The recruitment in the summer was a joke, TM's lack of knowledge of how to fix the on field dross was equally a joke, MV's car crash of a tenure (bar his first few games) has sucked all the confidence out of the players and RS's failure to lift said confidence during his short spell here along with some more dreadful loan players has all but killed the season off and resigned us to an early L2 relegation.
I feel sick to my stomach with it all, but not half as much as I do with the cancerous organisation that is SISU. They have systematically reduced our once proud club to a weak, pathetic and hopeless shell. I honestly don't know where we can possibly go from here, I've never experienced such a desperate and depressing situation!