Thanks SBPete. I wasn't looking for sympathy but just wanted to let folk know just how I feel about religion in general. I sometimes feel cheated because many people have a religion to turn to when they need it. I don't, simply because I have no belief at all, but I wish I did, if you can understand what I mean.
I wrote my autobiography back in 2004 and had it published online. I believe BringBackRattles has read it. Not trying to build up sales (I only get 30p royalties!), but if anyone's interested in how kids in care coped like me in the 1950's and 60's, then the link to my book is:
www.lulu.com/shop/barry-adams/pater-noster/paperback/product-23827413.html
I think Coventry libraries have it as well, but a much smaller font size. I re-edited it recently and enlarged font size, so much easier on the eye.