My problem is I can't properly enjoy when the club does well this season because of how much I hate our owners and what we've become, we're the bad guys, the way the club has treated the fans is a disgrace, the way the club has treated the players is a disgrace, the way the club has treated those they owe money to is a disgrace, the clubs actions towards those who disagree with them is a disgrace, the way the club has treated charities and the academy is a disgrace, the clubs actions in so many ways disgust me. Moving to Northampton, threatening to sue fans, the bomb squad, the outright barefaced lies, I could go on and on.
So when we do well I'm completely conflicted, when we do badly I'm completely conflicted. I just want sisu gone, then the club can have my money again, then they can have my attendance, my passion, my support. I simply can't be proud of us at the moment, sure I can be proud of Pressley and some of the squad but thats not enough with so much on the otherside that I'm ashamed of.
I'm trying to hold onto my anger so that I stay engaged and so the interest is there to help pick up the pieces when sisu toss us into the gutter for the final time and stick their last boot in.