They were extremely close, and it has hit my wife like an express train, even though we were expecting it.
Really really rough day.
My mother in law passed away last night (not from covid).
My wife had moved in with her two weeks ago to look after her, in her last days.
They were extremely close, and it has hit my wife like an express train, even though we were expecting it.
She came home to me and our two kids this morning and completely lost the plot. She was hearing her mums voice in her head and hallucinating.
I think it was due to a mixture of shock, grief and exhaustion.
Seeing her go through that nearly broke me this morning. She went to sleep for a few hours, and woke up in a much more level state.
It's been one of the hardest days of my life.
I know there are tough days left to come, both for my wife, and my kids, who are also distraught.
It's good to have a thread like this to let shit go.
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I was seriously considering just going to the doctor and asking for pills when I stumbled upon an app called Dare. It guides you through clinically proven ways to manage anxiety and how to stop it in it's tracks. I found myself instantly becoming less tense and the cloud lifting the first night I listened. The audio is spoken by an expert who has a very relaxing and comforting tone. It almost feels like a therapy session. There are also meditations in the programme but I personally find them less helpful than actual expert advice.
I downloaded it a week ago and today I feel almost 100% fine and if I do feel a rush of anxiety I know how to handle it instead of just worrying and making it worse which I'd been doing for about a year or so. A constant loop of worrying about feeling anxious which made me more anxious which manifested itself physically which in turn lead to more worry and so on. Being inside your own head all day is exhausting and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.
I highly recommend the app. It tackles depression and worry also. You can sign up for a free 15 day trial which unlocks the entire app which I think is enough time to get the full benefits without spending a penny.
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Its been a while since I posted but just wanted to say Thanks very much for mentioning Dare FM!
@Earlsdon_Skyblue1 I had a similar thing happen a few years ago. Met a girl we fell hard for one another but both lived in different places and both coming out of something heavy. I lived in London at the time and that's where she was from, all her friends were there, I got on with them and she'd move away to be with her ex. It felt like it needed some unknown thing just to click into place and it would be perfect. We met at festivals and spent a summer together, not quote holidays and stuff but has that same feeing of being away from the real word. After the summer was over things started to drip like you'd mentioned. I also did what you're doing now of leaving it to her to initiate contact. I got one email from a burner account from her one time saying how strong her feelings were and she dreamt of me almost every night but she just can't see how things would work. I replied but it bounced back as she'd just deleted the account. That was the last time I spoke to her, it was really rough at the time and I can understand the anxiety about letting it all go as things can seem so perfect but after I accepted that things weren't going to progress I was able to take a step back and evaluate myself, find areas for self improvement but also realise that some things weren't my or her fault but just bad timings or poor fate. Eventually I got over it all and it's just a footnote, I've been with my other half for year, got engaged a few months ago and couldn't be happier.
I didn't mean to hijack you in any way here, just express that from my experiences this is rough but even if you don't get what you want here things will get better. When you're in the middle of it it seems like it's the only light at the end tunnel but it really isn't and you will come out stronger for the experience.
All you can do is carry on. She'll either come back and it will be worth it or you'll wake up one day realising you haven't thought about her for a week and you've moved on.Thank you so much for the post. I did read it before but just wanted to reply when I had the time to put a proper message together.
It seems like we both went through a very similar thing. Nearly everything you said I can relate to.
I don't know if I'll ever hear from her again, but at this point reaching out isn't an option. I was up front with how I felt and told her she has space to figure herself out, and to get in touch if she feels she wants to. I didn't really have another option I guess.
I'm feeling much better in the respect that I'm getting on with life and it isn't so upsetting but I still miss her every day. Her friend reaching out was weird but guess I can't read too much into it.
I think it's so hard when something is that good and it just turns into a car crash without any really warning or explanation. Like you said though, some things are out of our control and I don't think she ever meant to hurt me on purpose.
The door is open but I'm getting on with my life. That's all I can do now, even though I wonder each day and curious if she still thinks of me in that way.
Thanks again for your message, it's really nice to know there are others out there who have a very similar experience.
All you can do is carry on. She'll either come back and it will be worth it or you'll wake up one day realising you haven't thought about her for a week and you've moved on.
My issues at the beginning of this year are already on here so not going to go over them again. 4 months later and I was just getting my life back together and now this weekend my car has been keyed, not once but twice - every panel affected.
Had to get the police involved so can't say any more.
Am I happy, far from it but I have my family's and now the police's support
Hope the saying 'what doesn't kill you makes you stronger' is true
Woke up this morning with brain fog and no motivation.
What did I do to overcome it? Drink water.
You may not feel like it but try and drink a couple of pints of water if you feel a bit lethargic. After an hour you will feel 10x times better ready to take on the world.
I've got a bottle of water on the go all day every day except for when I'm in the pub. Can't recommend it enough.
I started this as a teacher cos I was talking all day and carried it on when I left. So much hunger and general shittiness is actually dehydration.
It's a habit I need to get into.Definitely, I rarely snack. Rarely eat crisps or chocolate. And when I feel like I'm hungry I drink water.
I'll admit though, that was a technique I developed growing up as we barely had any food in the house.
I find that I drink significantly more water whilst working (at work) than I do at home. It's far more habitual at work whereas I drink much less at home. Agree on its benefits though
I find that I drink significantly more water whilst working (at work) than I do at home. It's far more habitual at work whereas I drink much less at home. Agree on its benefits though
Car now gone in for repair - Police have no evidence so can't take things further. However, I have now put up CCTV to watch in case anything else happens.Good to hear you seem a bit stronger.
HopefullyHope they get the bastard responsible for your car
Car now gone in for repair - Police have no evidence so can't take things further. However, I have now put up CCTV to watch in case anything else happens.
Now had further issues where the police have had to come out and more reports recorded - however still no sign to the end of this current nightmare.
Looking to move house as soon as possible now to escape all this and try to start afresh
Unfortunately it is. Scared to be in the house in case something happens; scared to leave the house in case we bump into the person or something happens to the house when not there. Hardly sleeping though worry. I'll get through it though - determined to come out the other side a stronger person in a house where I can relax and enjoy life againsounds dreadful.
Good luck with moving, hopefully you can get somewhere else ASAP.
Unfortunately it is. Scared to be in the house in case something happens; scared to leave the house in case we bump into the person or something happens to the house when not there. Hardly sleeping though worry. I'll get through it though - determined to come out the other side a stronger person in a house where I can relax and enjoy life again
Just got to hope I can get the value I need for my house and a mortgage I can afford for a new house
Unfortunately it is. Scared to be in the house in case something happens; scared to leave the house in case we bump into the person or something happens to the house when not there. Hardly sleeping though worry. I'll get through it though - determined to come out the other side a stronger person in a house where I can relax and enjoy life again
Just got to hope I can get the value I need for my house and a mortgage I can afford for a new house
Yes although the police (or won't) do anythingDo you know who the person is? Apologises if I missed something.
Sorry to hear about all this.
Yes although the police (or won't) do anything
What has been the trigger here If it's not too personal to share , although If you'd rather not that's perfectly understandableYes although the police (or won't) do anything
Don't want to go too deep into it but it started when she demanded money from me to which I said no - it all escalated from thereWhat has been the trigger here If it's not too personal to share , although If you'd rather not that's perfectly understandable
Reason for asking Is If council could be involved with solving.or lawyers perhap
Don't want to go too deep into it but it started when she demanded money from me to which I said no - it all escalated from there
Go on the DW, get a hacker to get all his passwords for you then send some horrible emails from his account and get him sacked.I'm currently trying to plan revenge on a guy who orchestrated getting me fired from my job about a year ago.
Need some moderation though, some of my ideas are a bit whacky.
Any half responsible (or not) thoughts on how I can screw with someone (who really deserves it) please let me know.
Back in the day, I'd have said buy him a BNP membership, then wait for the list of members to be hacked and publicised. So... Britain First? EDL?I'm currently trying to plan revenge on a guy who orchestrated getting me fired from my job about a year ago.
Need some moderation though, some of my ideas are a bit whacky.
Any half responsible (or not) thoughts on how I can screw with someone (who really deserves it) please let me know.
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